Sometimes You Don't Realize How Strong You Truly Are....

But for the first time in my life, I know that I am Strong. Super strong.  You know why?  I finally had a moment to reflect on last week.  And in honest fashion, I'll tell all. 

Within SEVEN fucking days last week the following happened:
1.  Found out I was officially divorced.
2.  Had dance rehearsal / recital with 2 girls with no assistance - last year I at least had Asia, Mickey's fiance to run backstage with me and help get the girls dressed, undressed and redressed.
3.  Found out that my ex husband was back with his ex wife.  This only totally and completely supports my intituation from last summer.  I knew I missed something......Now I know what. 
4.  Found out my ex, ex husband got remarried, speaking of Asia.
5.  Finished an intensive therapy program to assist with my post traumatic stress syndrome and the grief I've sustained over the past couple of years being in an abusive relationship.  The program was crazy!  It was almost a hypnosis like purging of everything that happened over the past 2 years.  It was covered by my insurance so I took full advantage of my time before the girls are out of school for the summer!  And it gave me total clarity on things I didn't understand before.   
6.  Confirmed my worse fear that indeed my mother has never loved me not even as a child - from her own mouth (awesome for Mother's Day week). 

That is 6 life changers in 7 days.  Well I suppose you can't count the recital or rehearsal as 'life changers' so let me make that 5 out of 7.  Try to beat that shit people!  (And not jump off a fucking bridge)....